my little adventure... Begins!

Allrighty! I'm now  ganna spend some time looking like a serious duesher... I bought a mobile bluetooth keyboard-- to use with my phone... I think my second biggest regret is that the auto correct refuses to work... the first is that the buttons are soft and rubbery and make it difficult to push the damn buttons. As for why I look like a duech...  I'm at starbucks, blogging with my phone.
Yup I really wanted to write about this experience that I am having. I probably would feel better if I was at a coffee shop in chico, cuz I make  such an effort to be recognized. That it never bothers me when I get strange looks. However today, and right now, I'm in Sacramento. Very much plugged into the wifi of this here starbucks with the cheapest best for your buck non caffeinated drink. For one i am not entirely sure what I did with my caffeine pills. I could go through the trouble of finding them but then I would have more issues. I have an hour to kill before my bus arrives. And it's getting dwindled into nothing by people texting me.
So My friend Olivia ;) and her new bff gave me a ride here. It was a nice drive. I do enjoy that part in a road trip where the driver takes the wrong turn and all of a sudden my navigating skills are needed.  The funny part is I indirectly took my role. I simply pulled out my smartphone and I thankfully had the address still on my clipboard. And before I knew how I did what I did, the nice operator voice was telling us how to get to our destination. So I'm gonna take the megabus it certainly sounds fun. Mr. Coffee says I should find a better word for "fun" since I like to say "fun stuff" so often. A common complaint, I am sure, but really even the word "fun" is fun to say. Like the word "bucket"  followed by all the words that  start the same or  end the same, the list is endless, with no meaning, or ulterior motive, but to tease the brain into squeezing out some tickle me giggles.
I just got the information that no website would clarify. I will take a picture to show you. I am sure if you wait long enough the answer would come clear, but, for someone who arrived as early as I did, I wanted, needed, to know where the bus parked itself.  That is at the end of the platform for the train closer to the thrift shop not the light.

The Thieves Guild

There is no trust amongst  thieves,  and yet they all congregate in one place. Who's brilliant yet stupid idea was this?  Why their guild master of course. Though he might be the most skilled,  he is the loneliest,  and most nieve. He trusts his fellow thieves,  more than other people.  Yet his guild'ies are the ones that steal and take advantage of him every day.
Word of advice,  your valuables are not safe in his home. So don't leave them there. 

cell phone experiment

I want to see how much I can write from my phone. I could go to the restroom and try my luck at recording my voice into words,  but unless I have a script to read from, my words just don't get written the same.  But I think this is probably equally frustrating.  I have the new Galaxy s4, so I'm using swipe to type everything.  Basically I am typing without having to lift my finger from the screen,  and hopefully auto-correct doesn't screw me over on the words I am typing. So forgive me for not having the best grammar.
     I'm sitting at Starbucks with my son, and I'm feeling grateful.  Everyone is going through a revelation, an apocalypse if you will, an end to the way they used to be, because the world demands a change from them.  I'm not worried for them, I am excited to see the results cuz I know they will pull through. And come out better for it.  I might be too. Though I still feel very much the same, I know a great part of me has died.  I don't think she is worth resurrecting.  I'm very much alive, but I'm covered in scars and I'm afraid there is no hiding them. This must be what war veterans go through, the ones that haven't gone "hard" the ones that were never meant to serve,  but we're forced to,  and came back alive all traumatized. .. I still want to ask my uncles what it was like.  But they spent the the last three decades trying to forget,  so who am I to ask them to re-live it. I think that's why I never ask people about their hardships, I figure if they want to talk about it, they will.
I'm looking forward to Easter.  I miss my family,  they are all assholes,  but they are apart of who I am. I still look forward to Mexico.  I'll make it happen. Until I do I'm not doing anything else!  Fuck everything else!  My son will come with me.  And my dad is going to be doing a bunch of acceptance, and explaining. .. I don't know how to begin to explain what I want from Mexico.
    All I know is that it's been calling to me the way only a place called home could.

My life is starting again

I would have never thought things would work out so well. I am so fucking happy right now! I am terrified of having it all ripped away, but for now, I am going to relish in it.
I haven't been practicing yoga simply my self perseverance. My horoscope recommended I get back to my roots. At first I thought it was talking about Mexico, I still plan on Mexico,but its on hold until all the paperwork crap is over. 5 years of John has turned me into a bit of an illiterate. I was reading some of my work from before John and I, and I had way better choices for words... but many more spelling errors. Probably has to do with all the weed I have smoked these past 5 years I wish I didn't need a man in my life to keep me happy, but I am happy to have met someone new. I think I like him. But who knows, it's barely been a few weeks, and I still don't know if anything is official, but maybe that's his way of giving me freedom? Its not that I need to be with other people, it's that I don't want commitments, cuz commitments freak me the fuck out right now. So technically he's just what I need right now. I am smitten. Rediculous! Right? I've barely been in the dating game for a few weeks well a month or two and I've met maybe 6-7 guys, and I've been on several dates, and this one, is the one I like...
well it took me a whole year or 2 but here I am. My new home still feels temporary, but it's mine and I don't care if eventually I have to pack It back up. For now it's everything I need, and I will make the most of it and be happy. My son is so much happier too. We have little chats everyday, he now reads to me. And sure he gets a little upset about small stuff because he's still dealing with the loss of John, but that's okay too.
I'm working on a better blog because I know I need to. I recently went looking for anything that resembled my brain, And I found nothing. I always carry a notebook, a small notebook in my purse with me at all times. Yet I did not find anything that resembled a Journal entry. 5 notebooks for 5 years and none of them had much of an opinion. I just had some slapstick happy thoughts, some very mindfull opinions, none of them were me.

Short In The Kitchen Again

...and improvising.

So I wont be going to the store for more food for another 7 days, in the mean time I have a box of funfetti cake mix, which calls for 1/3 cup of oil, 3 whole eggs, or 4 egg whites, and water(which if u just use what comes out of the faucet, is still plentiful). Well you don't want to know how little else I had in my kitchen.. See I went to costco and bought a big thing of olive oil, and one of those amazing bottles of vanilla. I swear they have the best vanilla. Anyways So for the rest of the month I was a bit short on other ingredients to cook decent meals for the rest of the month. well that was last month in May. In June I over stocked on the ingredients for cookies. Well I bought 2 bags of flour a large bag of sugar, 2 medium sized bags of brown sugar, and 3 bags of chocolate chips (2 cups sizes) and it had to be giradelli. It was amazing and yet so shameful I made at least 6 or 8 dozen cookies this month... and I only gave away 2 dozen... (I gained 10 pounds (SO VERY SHAMEFUL)) but they were the best cookies ever! and only one dozen came out a bit toasted, but none came out burnt.  But I didn't buy enough eggs, or butter, and although we went through 5 gallons of milk, the milk only lasted a little less than 2 weeks. So yeah 7 days left to the when I buy more food...

Anyways, So I figured I will bake this cake to satisfy our sweet tooth, (myself and the people who live with me) BUT...

as the title suggests, I was short on ingredients, So hopefully it all tastes good in the end. I am currently waiting patiently on the results of the cake I'll let you know when it pops out of the oven. So compared to what is stated above ^, I had just a little less than 1/4 cup of canola oil (I didn't want it to taste like olives) 2 large eggs, and yeah water. So hopefully my oil to eggs ratio didn't ruin the cake. Did I mention I only used ONE round cake pan, when I should have used 2? cuz that's totally what I did, and my cake is expected to look like a beautiful cupcake, but I am worried it might be raw in the middle...

Another dillema, I have no frosting, and when there's no milk, you must at least have frosting, otherwise you will get too much heart burn from eating just the cake... well I had about a third of a cup of powdered sugar, one stick of butter (that I must have over looked, cuz yesterday I had chocolate chips still... but today I dont...) and food coloring I always have food coloring. and vanilla thanks to costco.

So Here I Am. In the kitchen Making up a recipe as I am going on.

So for those of you who want to make frosting but are missing ingredients, here is one of those odd recipes...

1/2 cup of butter or shortening or a ratio of both. If you're like me your butter isn't room temperature, answer: microwave 30 secs, no more no less.

1/2 tsp of vanilla, I like to use the whole tsp.

4 Tblsp of warm water, add the water last, for if you melted your butter you might not need as much water as you think

now the recipe I was looking at called for a 16 oz bag of powdered sugar..(2cups) which I had only a third of a cup So here comes the improvise

1/3 cup of powdered sugar.

1 and 1/2 cup of gluttonous rice flour (its gluten free) this has the texture of corn starch, so corn starch might work as well. The finished product looks lumpy but i promise its good.

add like 3-4 drops of food coloring and mix until content.

So what has happened with the cake is... at 25-30 minutes in I did a toothpic test. it was raw in the middle, but the top of it was starting to toast, so I moved it to the lower rack. for 5 minutes. after the 5,  I did another toothpic test, it's a miracle its done.

(A tooth pic test is when u poke the cake in the middle with a toothpick til you cant dip it any further then you pull it out, and if your toothpick has nothing stuck to it your cake is done)

...waiting for it to cool off now; ganna add the frosting and...

 

And the cake is good! No noticeable bads. its a bit cakey on the mouth but hey that's why they call it cake! I added pink food coloring to the cake, funfetti just isnt colorful enough for me. As for the frosting: it tastes great. So yay! a successful improvising morning with cake!

I really wrote this a few days ago.

Buenas Noches!

Pues hoy, voy a escribir mi blog en español. Porque estoy tomando una clase de español este semestre. Me van a tener que perdonar si no pueden leer en español. Así que este es el primero, pero primeralmente escribí este diario en otra parte, pero no estaba contenta con el así que lo voy a escribir otra vez pero mejor.

Me llamo Karla, si no lo subieron antes, este es mi blog. El lugar de mi original es Guadalajara, Jalisco (es en México) y soy Mexicana-Americana. Las actividades que me gustan hacer son: escribir en este blog, juntar me con mis amigas, jugar cartas en la cafetería del colegio, y cocinar para mi niño. Si, tengo un hijo se llama Giovonni. El es de la edad de nueve anos. Vivimos con mi prometido, su nombre es John. El es guapo y responsable.

Yo soy estudiante de las Artes Gráficas, pero para hadar mas detalla y ser mas especifica soy Estudiante de de Múltiplos Medios de  periodismo. Algún día voy a ser la mujer con la mas experiencia, la administradora de el departamento de artes gráficas de un lugar que usa cosas así.

Otras actividades que me gusta acer : ander en mi bicicleta, patinar con mis láminas del rodillo. También ahí otros deportes que me gustan, pero no son de mi día diario. Pues allí lo tienes. Un tantito de mi en español.

You've known all along to remember the movies you've seen...

Apparently I am more insightful than I thought.
A friend asked me last night  "How do you know so much about how men act, Karla?" my immediate response was "movies, I watch a lot of movies." I delivered this message in a slow calm voice. But now that I have time to think about it, it's because of how I choose my friends. Not the answer to the question asked, but the question that is really being asked: "How do you know so much about people, Karla?"
I don't know about you. As for me I am always watching a movie. The movie of life. -- I sit down, make myself comfortable and I sit quietly watching, intently, upon the characters that I am about to get to know intimately, as If, I have known them my whole life, and say nothing. For the duration of two hours , I get to watch the story of their life unveil before me.
Isn't that what everyone dose when they sit to watch a movie? sometimes there's popcorn, sometimes an intermission (God I hate intermissions!) and sometimes someone pushes the pause button, your snapped back to reality and you wait. How rude; you think to yourself, and you reflect on that movie you were watching, you start to relate it to your own life, then you begin to predict the ending of the movie. The rude person comes back, sits down, and the show continues...
There is a song by Kate Muccuci called "Only Begun" one of the lines in that song relates to this story she says " you've known all along, To remember the movies you've seen, With the bar and the smokes and the good and bad folks, Yeah, the lessons they teach you are free, It's an opinion, so hey, Take the opinion and run, You've only begun" Remember the movies you've seen... the lessons they teach you are free. I'm not ganna lie, I spent a great deal of my childhood in front of the tv. My favorite shows were cartoons that had a storyline, a heroic journey and hard learned lessons along the way. Unfortunately there are also the cartoons that have no lesson to be learned and are made purely for entertainment value, those are great in their own way too, but they give cartoons a bad name. This is why it's important to be aware of what your kids watch on tv. You need to make sure they are watching the good tv shows and not the ones that rot your brain. I could give u a list of bad tv, but I'm not going to trail that far off the subject. My point is, people in general watch a lot of tv, and if you are only taking in the tv at face value than you are waiting your time. Sure in real life there are no happy endings, but in real life people do have a chance at happiness, So why not learn a thing or two from tv?
So when I'm the new girl in a classroom or an office building, I'm polite, quiet (comes off as shy) and I intently do whatever it is I am supposed to be doing, but I also pay attention to a few key things:
What people are wearing, (this is usually the fastest way for you to know if this is the kind of person you would hang out with, sorry non judgmental people but its true. judging a book by its cover is the fastest way to find friends) and on that note, I hope that you are appropriately dresses and groomed as well, because you don't want to scare off your target friend by making the wrong impression.
What the people are talking about and how they deliver what they are saying... this is like listening to a comedian you can tell how good he is by how quickly everyone gets the joke. Pay attention to how people talk, you can easily figure out so many things about a person by the tone of their voice.  For example: A person of the opposite sex is talking to you, you cannot tell if they like you, or if they just want to be friends, or if they just want to get into your pants, (which I promise, is not the same thing as liking you) They say something like I think about  -- a) you sometimes, b) asking you out sometimes c) how bright your eyes are. they say a- they are your friend, probably a good one. b- they like you, most likely a lot. c--- they just want to get into your pants. yes I learned this from watching people and watching tv.
Finally you want to pay attention to how much they talk about themselves, or other people. This will let you know how good of a person they are, if they are selfish or if they are generous or if they are meanies etc etc.
and if you ever get the chance to see how they live... don't get me started....
This is how I meet people, because for a while they don't realize I'm there, but once I know who they are, I know how to behave myself around them. I know how much of my personal life I can share with them, I know how much I can trust them, and up to a certain point I can figure out if I want to hang out with that person outside of school/ office settings.
P.S. I will get back to  you guys with lists of must see tv to learn different lessons of life. For now I leave you with that thought, Tv, don't take it for granted. Those script writers didn't come up with that stuff out of thin air, unless its a really dumb tv show...
anyways,,, have fun :)